I find that most things in life, like the relationships that you force and obsess over, are just diversions.
I think the ones that matter feel different. They don’t just happen because you just needed to feel better, or the other person needed to feel better. They happen because they’re supposed to. That’s what I’m waiting for. And, if it never happens I’m fine finding trustworthy and safe people to have casual sex with for the rest of my life.